Broken Smiles

I was broken with a smile on my face

My heart, shattered in bits and pieces

Pseudo love of my life gone without a trace

I thought myself invincible, unbreakable

Our love, to be unconditional and infinite

But you threw me out like yesterday's trash, disposable

Truth be told, at some point I knew you weren't the one

I hoped you'd become, I thought I'd figured you out

But you were always one step ahead, and finally you won

I surrendered my heart to you, I needed to feel

My addiction, being wanted, you made me believe I was

Bathing me in deceitful lies and stolen kisses, never real

My life became one with yours, I was nothing without you

And you loved it; you fed on it like a vulture on a carcass

You loved how I loved you, doing the craziest things for you

That first night you said you loved me, and being the fool I was, I believed you

I was ecstatic and immediately uttered the same words to you

In that moment, I should have known, those words meant nothing to you

You sailed my sea of love, creating ripples, disrupting the calm

Little by little, you drained my self-confidence and self-worth

Until there was nothing left of me, you finally had me in your palms

Broken promises and misplaced priorities, yet I still believed

You'd change after realizing your continuous mistakes

Foolishly believing your deceitful words after every new fluke

Your tongue was sugar, and your mouth, chocolate ice cream

You always knew how to make my blood pump and my heart race

And because of you, words lost all meaning to me

You expertly found ways to make me constantly degrade myself

Doubt and belittle myself, as never good enough for anything

Except walking in your shadow and being an ornament on your shelf

Maybe I was actually to blame; I should have instantly walked away

But I hoped and maybe even prayed, that someday you’d finally change

I told myself, “he’ll change for me; he’ll be a better man one day.”

That was my first mistake, no, it was actually my second

My first was believing you loved me as much as I you

And second was thinking you’d change for me, when you wouldn’t, even for you